now OFFICIALLY not all there

Ugh. I came up with an apt phrase that describes the past week and forecasts the next 10 days as well:

( If you convince people you are a goddess, you shouldn't whine when they expect you to perform miracles. )

My neck feels better today! Yay! Of course the doc hasn't called back. It still kinda hurts to take deep breaths and to laugh. Very weird.

Had to work late today - left work at 9pm. Monthly report is due at COB tomorrow and I am in all-day meetings every day this week. Argh. At least the hearing on Friday got rescheduled. Of course I find out today that it's rescheduled for the day I was supposed to leave for vacation in September. Sooo, now that's gonna be a tight crunch. unless they postpone again. yeesh. If they're so sure of their case, they sure aren't convincing me of it - they've been the only ones to postpone. Ah well.

Now off to FH. and wish I could do something to help people who are a half continent away. It feels very silly to just say "hugs". I want to be able to do something. I want to fix things.

Forgive me, I'm a control freak with a mother streak a mile wide.

ALSO ALSO ALSO! I believe I have a PB for Momoko!!!!!! I know I said that before, but unless someone says otherwise (*waits in vain for email reply*) This one is the final choice! I am just waiting on MP to get me lots and lots of icons and then I have to figure out when to start using them and how to get the icons uploaded, since I am almost maxxed already. Hee! I even have a Kaoru PB!!!!!! I'm finding it very hard to find a Miyako, tho. Hmmm.

*pardon the gratuitous use of Hetalia icon.

"As I thought about this announcement that I would not seek reelection, I thought about how much fun other governors have as lame ducks: They maybe travel around their state, travel to other states, maybe take their overseas international trade missions," she said.

"I'm not going to put Alaskans through that," she continued. "I promised efficiencies and effectiveness. That's not how I'm wired. I'm not wired to operate under the same old politics as usual." says Palin. From here

Okay, so in order not to be a "lame duck" she decides to quit? Does she mean to say that Alaska need no one now? She's done it all? Any one who follows her will be ineffective since they may not be re-elected? That a person cannot do something worthwhile in 2 years?

Dear god.

One sister for sale!
One sister for sale!
One crying and spying young sister for sale!
I'm really not kidding,
So who'll start the bidding?
Do I hear a dollar?
A nickel?
A penny?
Oh, isn't there, isn't there, isn't there any
One kid who will buy this old sister for sale,
This crying and spying young sister for sale?
Shel Silverstein

There. Are you happy, mom? I've emailed my doctor about the neck pain. Yeesh.

Okay, home today because the blasted neck ache is worse and it hurt to take deep breaths and I am very very COLD. No seriously. I spent all day yesterday and today wrapped in a blanket. A lot of Saturday too, when I wasn't asleep. Well, I was wrapped up when I was asleep, too, but I don't remember it.

Funny thing, that. On Friday, I had my sleep study test. Had to report to the lab at 8pm. So I told myself, "don't sleep in! If you are expected to get to sleep at 8, you canNOT sleep until 2pm!" (we had Friday off work for the holiday)

So I set my alarms on Thursday night and woke promptly at 1pm on Friday. Whoops. Okay. So I stay awake all day - no naps. and finally drive to the lab. I'm feeling woozy cause man I want a nap, and they ask when I normally go to bed. I laugh. Anywhere from 12-3am, I tell her and she replies that they will need me to go to bed around 10 or 11. I say I will try.

I get all dolled up and amuse the labtech greatly with my strange humour and stories of throwing shoes and maybe a chair at the tv if fox news comes on, etc. At one point, another tech offers to come in an help and mine is still being all giggly, "No. No, we're fine."

I had a DVD of old time police dramas - much better than the promotional video they had me watch, which was utterly insane so I spent most of it texting MP: I am more the type to listen to a technical POV than smiling fake interviewers comparing apnea to maintaining sports equipment- and put in Dragnet and Dick Tracy and lay on the bed. Woot! Fell asleep fairly quickly - about 15 minutes after they did all the testing of the recording equipment.

( Maeyan's Dream!! Now in 3-D! With amazing smell-o-vision technology! See AND SMELL the soil and air of an alien planet! Be thrilled as you witness the strange plague and its strange effects on the people of another world! )

And that is all I really remember about that dream. I believe that was when I woke up to turn off the DVD, which was stuck on repeating the menu. Finding the TV turned off really confused the lab tech, who kept asking if it went off by itself. I told her twice that, no, I'd woken because it had annoyed me and turned it off. She was confused, probably because I hadn't woken when she'd come in to check the sensor on my leg.

There were two more dreams, but I don't know if LJ has a limit on what I can post or not... so I will post them later. Yes, media_junkie, one of them... well, technically both of them, were about the test itself.

Oh. They woke me from the test at 6.30am, and I got breakfast and came home and at about 10am, went down for a nap and didn't wake until 2pm. I then went to bed cranky (headache + neck pain + fireworks = grr!) at about midnight. Slept through the night and woke at about 9am? Then napped again on the couch. BUT. They didn't give me a mask at the test, so it looks like it's not apnea? Results in a few weeks, but, yeah, huh.

Strangest dreams at the sleep study place. Will write something up later.

Interesting tidbit about me: I fucking hate fourth of july. Or, I guess, I really just hate fireworks. Woke up and suddenly hated them one day. now all they do is remind me of gunfire.

And it's not helping my headache or my neck ache to have the damn things going off almost constantly. And I just got back from buying dinner and had to be careful because so many people were setting them off in the street that I could have blown myself up twice, at least, if I hadn't stopped to wait out the explosions.